"Thoughts"

Why do i give my heart to those who throw it to the ground??
Why do i trust those who lie to me??
Why can i see the good in others, but they cant see the good in me??
Why am i always the one picking up the shattered pieces of my once whole life??

How is is that two people that are so much alike can hear the same words,
hold the same conversation, and at the end....
derive two totally different meanings of the same situation
To me it means love... to her, its just another walk in the park

Why do I hide behind words that i really dont mean
Why is it that i cant get her out of my mind..
After all this time I still think about her..
Why does she toy with me?? either love me or toss me aside

Why do i give into my feeling so readily, willing to sacrifice all..
For someone that surely doesnt appreciate or accept my love
I dont want to shun her, or cast her to the side
Shes my reason for living, my sunshine on the darkest of days

Shes my bestfriend, how do i leave someone so entwined in my life
Dont answer her calls, dont return her messages what do i do??
Please God answer my plea for help... i need your wisdom
help me cope, help me deal, why does it hurt? Why love... its just to much pain to try